Guess what? Still Sick :(

I think I'm losing it. I'm losing my ability to cope with all this illness. I miss my happy, healthy kids. Every morning I wake up to someone complaining of a tummy ache and I go to bed every night wondering who is going to wake us up in the middle of the night covered in puke (hint: it is usually Micah). I don't know if we are dealing with yet another stomach virus or if the antibiotics are just wreaking havoc on their little systems. Right now I'm thinking it's the latter, but I'm at a loss as to what to do for them. I've been giving them probiotics, but so far it doesn't seem to be helping.

I feel helpless and hopeless and frustrated. I think we are on the mend, but it only lasts for two days and then we are right back where we started. They don't want to eat, Hailey spends the first part of every morning running to the bathroom - I have no idea how she is supposed to go to school like that and we aren't even half-way through this round of antibiotics yet.

I have no idea what I'm doing wrong. I'm trying to keep up with it all; making sure things are a cleaned up as possible to avoid spreading germs. I spent two days boiling peroxide and water to help kill airborne germs. I've washed everyone's bedding at least twice this week - Micah's more than that. I just feel like I'm failing them somehow and I don't know what to do. I'm angry that we are going on five weeks of this and I'm losing hope that there is an end in sight. I'm trying to maintain perspective, I know that things could be much worse, and eventually things will get back to normal; but some moments are more difficult than others.

I'm actually starting to feel like Hailey's strep isn't responding to the antibiotic as it should. She is sometimes complaining of her throat hurting, she is coughing, her stomach is hurting, she doesn't want to eat much, she has dark circles under her eyes, and when I peeked at her throat last night it seemed pretty swollen to me. Unless she has made a miraculous recovery I'm calling her doctor again today...I've been on the phone a lot with them through this illness.